confusion is filling me fast
with no one to turn to
the waters getting thick
and treadings not so easy
dragging my soul beating and muddy
here lies the future
and Im terrified to make the wrong or right choice
It sucks because
your not here to catch me when i fall
grace is my weak point
and the bruises proove
that clumsy's not the word for it
sadly your smiles fading from my memorie
and I can't even remember eyes
pictures dont have voice
and they never talk back
so much has happened
I couldnt face you now
but Id give anything to have just one day
I swear Im not as bad as the decisions I make
Fun times right...
my hearts not in this one
you took most of it when you left
and Im still broken
attempting to fix all of this
my heads barely above it all
and my minds long gone
left a note that said call me
when you figure this out
please tell me there is more then this
so many people pulling me every which way
your laugh is gone and the smell of your perfume faded
I cant help but tear up inside
everytime my phone rings I know it could never be the person I want it to be
Please dont hate me
i cant bear this life much longer
all my happy times
fill with guilt
id give my life to have you back here
this world sucks still
over a year
and hurts worse somedays
they say smile
with time all wounds heal
im waiting
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