and all that surrounds us tells me your different

like the sun you keep coming back day after day
you seem to control every thought that runs through my mind
with a nod of the head and blink of an eye
you catch me
held captive in your love for a lifetime
breaking out is so hard
comfortability keeps me grounded wiht you
I want to tell you
but I cant
you break my heart every time you look right through me
shes far more beautiful than I ever had a chance at being
so forgive me for hating her but its really you i cant stand
tear soaked teddy bears and kleenex wasted
im done crying for you
im ready to be free
just stay
far far
away from me

Growing up and growing out
I cant control lifes twists and turns
I cant control what people think about me
I cant even control what I think about me
false judgement
and cold shoulders
Im a step away from falling to my death
and a hand reach away from making it
when things start to look up
you break me back down
things sure have changed
Im making peace with torn heart strings
sad that you are who you are
id love to love you