confusion is filling me fast
with no one to turn to
the waters getting thick
and treadings not so easy
dragging my soul beating and muddy
here lies the future
and Im terrified to make the wrong or right choice
It sucks because
your not here to catch me when i fall
grace is my weak point
and the bruises proove
that clumsy's not the word for it
sadly your smiles fading from my memorie
and I can't even remember eyes
pictures dont have voice
and they never talk back
so much has happened
I couldnt face you now
but Id give anything to have just one day
I swear Im not as bad as the decisions I make
Fun times right...
my hearts not in this one
you took most of it when you left
and Im still broken
attempting to fix all of this
my heads barely above it all
and my minds long gone
left a note that said call me
when you figure this out
please tell me there is more then this
so many people pulling me every which way
your laugh is gone and the smell of your perfume faded
I cant help but tear up inside
everytime my phone rings I know it could never be the person I want it to be
Please dont hate me
i cant bear this life much longer
all my happy times
fill with guilt
id give my life to have you back here
this world sucks still
over a year
and hurts worse somedays
they say smile
with time all wounds heal
im waiting
.........

Dont be afraid to tell it like it is

smile
thats all i got today
because the things you said
are killing me
I cant share them
but Ill keep them with me
forever
because their so damn funny
its ok
when the book comes out
your name will be out of it
sadly the one person who would
enjoy this most cant even know
and that frankly sucks to me
the things you said
:) LMAO
your so funny

bring me home

breath deep
take it all in
lifes to short
so Im drinkin again
the beauty in this place
covered with hate
your eyes told lies
that I appreciate
secret life
this to that
so many reasons to just run away
the laughs Ive shared over you
and now look at me
a hypocrit in my own mind
and that goes with out saying
jacks my best friend tonight
and we're getting wild
tommorow jim and jose are coming around
and I'd love for you to meet them with me
tangled in the sheets
this is the life
not perfect
yet
just right
from vodka & orange juice to rum & coke
the fun just began
so inhale mary jane and passs her on
we're living baby
so why do i feel like this?

ciggarettes and wine couldnt begin to fill this void

hopeless dream
I cant escape
your the only thing on my mind
all the time
its damaging
its been months
but i cant stop thinking about you
laughter fills my mind
how could i be so insinsitive
for a girl im pretty clueless
I wish you never left
or...
but its to late
maybe in time things will get better
until then
i miss you
forever
...

dream lived out

Slip fast away
make it out clean
go for dreams and live for hope
escape nostolgia
and come to
this is it
today we live
just for today
make it worth while
do what you love
love what you do
run fast from the memeories
and shy away from plans
do what you can to love who you are
Its hard in this day and age
to be happy
find what you love and never stop doing that
dont let life beat you down
and dont let failure keep you from
getting back up
we need to escape reality
and live big
we've got one chance
lets not fuck it up