Medically speaking your adorable

Secrets shared via the internet

you say you never read into myspace
but i catch u in the act

believing everything your eyes feast upon

this is the age
of
amerature
camera whores

and im the queen of the brothel

feed my insecurities
with admiration
in the form of words
and odd glances

you treat me like
a harlot in a convent

disguising her sins
in first-class
girl scout style

you lied to escape
reality

and i channeled
lust into photos
for the world to see

desire fuels my mortality

im a model in my own mind

undiscoverd

unrecognized

When im home alone I just cant help myself...signing off again ...Im alright

You left me abandoned

cold

bitter

alone

the beauty of it all
i knew it was coming
and i couldnt stop it

your endless battle for life
my endless battle of denial

i missed it
that call
the last words
forever lost

ignorance
or maybe
fear

im not sure

these days are cloudy
one more class missed
one grade i cant fix
a paper to write
journals due soon

no inspiration
lack of sleep
and food

I cant grasp
the pole full of grease
its slipping
along with me

one last shot

I cant fight the urges
the razors call my name
the sweet escape of
each pill
as it goes down
relief
or just further down

my fix

i try to keep the feelings away

if only for today
id like to be happy

my only happiness
is found withen
the deep lyrics of bands ill never
see

a love for the
musical
in life

My life
one manic episode after another

down then up

this rollercoasters making me sick
but the carney wont let me off