My wasted heart.........

night after night
I wait for
someone to rescue me
like sleeping beauty
in the tower
only im trapped in my own
misery
self inflicted
self controlled
maybe it will go away
but maybe im insane
you see
when you left
it fucked my world
and now i wait
for the complete circle
of events
im sick of aiting
but I need to hope

OKAY

honestly
I hate your honesty
best friends means...
well best friends means nothing in this case
you told me we'd have it all
and here I am
500 miles from home
and your leaving for
...
do you even know
I told myself i didnt care
and yet here I am
wasting my time
wrting about you
once again
your running away
just like before
and when you come back
I hope you know
i wont be here
Im done waiting
so take that lie and
shove it

forever yours

I hope it breaks your heart
when you see us together
happy as you'll never be
I hope it tears you down
with each kiss we share
Every walk I take with him in hand
I hope you feel the love he has for me
I hopeyou cry when you see our pictures
on myspace
When we start our family
I hope your miserable
I hope it breaks your heart
when you think of me
...
Because mine breaks everyday
I wake up and hes not you

one lost soul

Sinking down she steps away
to look at this mess shes made
its only been a month
and still shes managed to for go
all reality and destroy
her plans
how can this be
after three days it was going down
and now she remembers why it is hse left in the first place
you see it was to run
and never face
the mistake she made
one two three
hours she had
and never did
ring ring ring
its just me and i wish
youd been there
to see how stupid ive gotten
ha
youd roll
360 and then 180
just to escape this face
no shame
only facades
.........
no endings
only
death

could it be this misery will suffice

all I've said I would never be
I have become
alcohol
solving my poblems
with each gulp
I cure
cancer
broken hearts
and mendable souls
i wish i never
took these moments
i wish you would go away
save me from who i am bound to be
i want everything you are not
and so it seems ill never be
but i want to be okay
again
to breath at ease
for once

pressure

here we go again
this road was paved
and we took the bumps
for the fun
but in the end
we're all the same
miserable with memories
of joyful or sorrowful times
i refuse to be
like you
iresstibley miserable
at 18
i hate that you hate me
but more that
I hate me

someone come and save my life

nothing more than okay is what she asked
and she recieved
perfection
but in oblivion
perfection is nothing
cmpared to misery
we always want what is not ours
never excepting the good she has
she wore out the love he had for her and forever
she was alone