The Patron saints of liers and fakes....

It seems these days
are deamed with
disappointment
and slowly things seem to
unravel
as i layed there last night
my mind screamed for any justice
of why things keep happening
I dont "understand"
and I really dont want to talk
I need time to sit
i need ghandi
or something
these days just fill up
so fast
alcohol down
the hatch
a long draw from
a newport 100
bring satisfaction I wish it hadnt
and there
I sat
in 3 degree weather
for 30 minutes
and the cold brought
tranquility
or numbness
and by this time
either one was welcome
so what comes next
this i dont no
a funeral soon awaits
and i cant wait for it to be over
the "sympathy" of ppl who never liked
her anyway
Its ok though
its just another
Day

Im the new cancer..Never looked better and you cant stand it

In Life you succeed or you fail

theres not much more to it

its not a matter of whose the best
simply a matter of making it as far as you can

If you make it
your'e a hero
in your own eyes

make yourself happy
try not to worry so much about
other people

this is a dog eat dog
world
either EAT
or
get Eaten

take your pick

Sleepless nights lead to psychosis

The beauty of closing your eyes
and drifting off to
a wonderful place of dreams
were anything goes its your choice
no matter what you have that
but when your stripped from it
when you lay there night after night
wishing if just for one night
you could close your eyes and be off to that other worrld
yourr mind plays tricks on you
you starrt to hear things that do not exist
your body starts to hurrt
in places you never thought existed
your eyes are heavier than life itself
you pray
and wonder why
what the hell did you do
why is that everyone else
gets that luxury
and you do not
is it the fact that
you have no real reason to wake up in the
morning so if you actually do sleep
there would be no reason to get out of bed
you just sit therre and think all night
6 am rolls around you figure why not get up
you'd give up your most prrized possession for that sleep
just and hour or two
anything
.
.
.

one leg down

song lyrics
fill my head
as sit here alone
wondering
what happened to the classics
when did all music become a scream
loud
imposing on our ear drums
delivering
quante satisfaction
as we glissfully listen
and pretend we actually understand
the twisted words
pouring out of
the beautiful face
of this emo god
from fall out boy
to afi
even some chiodos
we love it
we get it
some people dont but we do
the "punk" generation
our parents most likely
hate it and maybe that makes it better
if its to loud
your simply to old

If you think happiness is sunshine... you never danced in the rain!

As his hand slid up my thigh
my body pounded with temptation
my lips gave in
and his dark brown eyes
told me everything would be alright
his hips grinded
hard to mine
and at once
we became a
statistic
with a few
twists
and lots of
pressure
my body screamed
and his
lips peirced
my forehead
and forr that night
the world revolved
around
his black spikey hair
and
the way he
whispered in my ear

My hair was everywhere screaming infedelities

my body wanted
every minute
of this unfaithful
act

your eyes looked
right into mine
and
together we decided
to go ahead and lie

you kissed me first
but i kissed you last

I knew I'd feel guilty

but that didnt matter

the way your lips
felt there way in the dark to my ear
and the words you whispered
sunk in so deep

I never meant to bring hurt
but
i couldnt resist

the broken friendship
wasnt worth it

and im really sorry

but during the
time we were together
I didnt think twice

of how you'd
feel
or the consiquences
that would come

I'm sorry

Your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears, rather ones that just don't care

His lips like poison
delivered just what was anticipated

the way I knew he lied
but still I went back for more

The way he could look right into my
eyes and say anything
It didnt matter
and I let him

every time his lips
graced mine
I knew it was one more inch to
a broken heart

Every whisper
from that deep and raspey voice
dug holes in my heart
deep enough
to bury my self in


I knew the end

its classic

like a teenage love song
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So i couldnt finish it but i like it so far

I only play to win. I only want what I deserve so who are you trying to kid? You can call it like you see it, but I call it like it is

Only after disaster can we be resurrected

We need disaster
to proove how "Good" we can be
why is it that the only time
we help out one another
is when we think that one is "in need"
Why do we need to be in need
to get help
what if we just help
just
say ok
today its my goal
to help someone
and
do it

its not like you have
to save the world just do something
anything

donate 50 cent to random charity

who cares

...........................
Lifes to short to make it all about money
why do we work
so hard to
buy things
that we think we need
that we dont
that 400 dollar purse
or 70 thousand dollar atmosphere killing Escalade

we want so much
but its advertismen that make us that way
I want what i cant have so Im going to
work my ass off
to be able to have
this
this
THIS SHIT
I dont need
the biggest house
fastest car
I wont even enjoy it
I'll just work for more
strive for better
we are all consumers
that it we're here to buy things

I know this
and yet I want that nice car
that house Who knows why
???

On a long enough time line everyones survival rate reaches Zero!

She stands here watching
her own life unravel

all lies come undone

so many lifes impacted
yet she cares none at all
each lie was told with care
as untrue as it was

she waits

in morn everyday

because :
simply..

somebody dies everyday

she waits
for
nothing

but she watches
as cops move in and out of her
once beautiful home now
destroyed
by infinit power urges
inside shes angry

at no one
or everyone
she cant stop

as she
downed the glass of water
washing down a bottle of happiness in
pill form
she waits

as she dug the razor
deep within
her flesh
discovering that no pain is bad pain at least you feel

she realizes

this is as close to heaven as she can get

she was gods unwanted child

she dealt with it!